Frarieville was the safe space on which I could plant my flag.
As her family saw it, my mother’s life in London was one of comfort. But she also struggled. Both of these things were true.
Quietly, I clung to what I knew: how to be an outsider in the South.
Though no place is home upon arrival, I make it my home by the time I leave.
Time amplifies division; I fear that we’re never going to be a big family again, that my newborn son will never consider his cousins to be siblings like I did.
At home, in Goiânia, I didn’t have to be Brazilian; I could just be me.
What might have happened if we had stayed?
The land that was previously seen as harsh and brutal by colonial forces was actually a site of survival, new life, and renewal.
Comforting each other is more natural when we’re physically present, which is what the pandemic made it impossible for my not-husband to be.
Was my rejection of the durian, Southeast Asia’s King of Fruits, a betrayal of my cultural identity, of my life in Singapore?