“Though desire for sex is considered one of our four primal drives, I lack such a desire almost completely.”
There is opportunity in forcibly rewriting a story, in trying out identities that might not feel true at first.
It is the act of recording all this data that has helped me step away from identifying so strongly with it.
I wanted the most information possible and thought I had nothing to fear. Then my mother began to lose her memory.
It was the form of therapy I feared that changed me for the better.
My lesson should have been “choose risk”—change didn’t always mean closing a door.
I believed I could be protected from what lay ahead as long as I saw what was coming.