“We were often unaware of the ghosts working the land beside us.”
“I love sweaty sex!” the orchardist announced to the break room at lunch one day during a particularly hot week.
Years ago, the break room had been the site of an escapade by a groundsman we called the Sex Machine. He’d been caught doing someone (I never learned who) on the lunch table. Instead of being fired, he was reprimanded and denied a raise. “I had syphilis twice, I had syphilis twice,” he liked to say (he said everything twice, which is probably how he got syphilis twice). He’d also had crabs, and he told us that the best way to get rid of them was to back your butt up to a mirror to make the crabs think there was another person to jump onto. A staff photo showed him in his younger days, in black and white, arms crossed over his chest, staring moodily at the camera.
Something about the place made everyone zany. Maybe it was our way of not thinking about the history of where we worked. We were often unaware of the ghosts working the land beside us. They looked out and saw only forest, where we saw a city. They harvested cotton and tobacco, which we did not have to do, even though we grew both for display. They battled different weeds because global trade hadn’t yet brought some plants, like kudzu, to America. The tourists saw only the beauty and almost none of the exploitative history. It was very nearly true of us, too. But I felt all the past labor in the land every time I dug down into the soil and it wasn’t hard Virginia clay, every time I looked out on the trees that take years to bear first fruit. It was like receiving an inheritance.
The many gardeners before me had amended the soil until it was rich and dark and easy to dig. Occasionally, we got giant loads of compost from the city compost facility, which meant that in addition to broken-down leaves and twigs, we got Barbies, Pez dispensers, Hot Wheels cars, plastic forks, and other random objects that people threw in with their yard waste. Because of the soil and the all-day sun, the garden was amazingly productive. Kale grew up to my waist, and turnips were the size of softballs. Corn towered above the tallest of us. We got to take everything home, which meant I ate whatever was harvested and bought nothing but flour, butter, sugar, and milk at the grocery store. The other vegetable gardener canned everything. I don’t think she even bought vegetables in winter.
Our boss had grown up in Europe during World War II. He liked to look at the weeds and say, “We used to eat those. We cooked them with olive oil.” The early hardship of his life gave him a sense of equanimity about the world and the people in it. His kindly, lined face took in all the living beings around him, observing how they were getting along. Winter and summer, he wore plaid shirts and holey, wool v-neck sweaters, as if neither heat nor cold affected him. I often found him in the cluttered greenhouse, working. “Do you want to transplant lettuce?” he would ask me, as if offering me the option to do something else. When teaching me how to transplant, he said, “Press the soil around the roots; the plant likes to feel supported.” For him, plants and people were not much different: Every plant had a use, just as every person had a place in the world. His way of thinking has become a permanent part of me. He was more of a mentor than a boss.
Our real bosses were the weather and the seasons; they told us what to do: when to plant the bulbs in the flower garden, when to harvest seeds, when to plant the chicory. My favorite time in the garden was March through May, when it was still cool and the paths weren’t swarming with tourists. The peas grew up their trellises, the brilliantly-colored spotted Aleppo and rouge d’hiver lettuces popped up, and the orchard trees flowered. At sunset, golden light covered everything. We had a number of dogs who patrolled the gardens each night to keep the deer away. When I released them at dusk, they barked happily, galloping through the tall grass among the apple trees and the grapevines.
By July, the grass between the garden beds had been trod into nonexistence. Wilted children moped behind their parents, forced to visit Places of Interest on their family vacations. The grapes began to mature in the vineyard. We went out with yards and yards of net to cover the vines. The net billowed around us as we worked under the blazing sky to protect the fruit from birds. In August, at dusk, sphinx moths hovered at flowers, almost identical to hummingbirds with their rapidly beating wings. In autumn, we harvested vegetables, collected seeds, pulled up summer plants like tomatoes, and transplanted cold weather crops like kale. In winter, we started plants in the greenhouse and cleaned seeds to use the following year or to sell in the gift shop.
I got paid to pick cherries that I took home to make cherry pies. I ate my first peaches right off the tree, juicy and hot from the sun. Day in and day out, I worked with people who entertained me. The orchardist married one of the other gardeners. I found a partner there, too. It was a place that could have existed without me, but I would not be who I am without it. It gave me a lifelong love of unusual vegetables and the belief that I should grow everything I eat. It was a place ruled by seasons, ruled by history, created by hardship and exploitation, maintained by biophilia. It’s a place that wouldn’t exist if not for slaves. Hundreds of years later, I benefited from their labor, from all the work they’d done to clear the land, to terrace the garden, to plant the trees, to amend the soil. These things weave together forever in my memory, blood and beauty.
J.D. Ho has an MFA from the Michener Center at the University of Texas in Austin. She lives and writes in Virginia and has successfully grown pawpaws from seed.